on changing seasons and dreams
The family was upset that he was not letting go. They were emotionally drained.
I didn’t know if he could hear me but I whispered to him to let him know who I was and why I was there. I focused on his head and his heart. Thirty minutes later I felt dizzy, a sudden wave of heat and extreme nausea. I was not prepared for the impact of our cosmic dance.
I needed to walk away from the family and retreat to the bathroom to gather myself so they did not see the effects. I knew this would be our final time together. He passed away a few hours later.
No matter the presentation, the theme of ‘letting go’ that runs through life continues to challenge me. Looking back, it is clearly the same obstacle I struggle to hurdle over.
What am I grateful for?
- Witnessing the impact of holding on and having greater appreciation for finishing unfinished business.
- Witnessing the impact of letting go and having greater appreciation for resolving unfinished business within ones own heart. After all, it is the self that must assuage the self.
- Remembering that although a struggle, there is always a deep peace in letting go and that for every death, there is a birth.
Finally, I thank him for the dream in which I dedicated this song to him and that he in turn dedicated to me…