I was listening to her story and upon ingestion was filled with anger because I recognized the poison the storyteller was made to eat. She told the story of telling […]
Think of the people that would attend your funeral. When you need help in life call upon those people that came to mind because they will be there for you. […]
I can’t count the number of people that told me I needed to get back on the horse and start dating after I divorced. I thought, “Really? You don’t even […]
The Hands They protect this little girl. They are her own. Every time she opens them, and she does, others step inside. Why They Close Her experience has been that […]
The Truth Blocked. Analytical. Self-Contained. Me. Why It Sticks – They were traits I took on as a child to protect myself. Blessings. – They are traits that have benefited […]
"It's one of the greatest gifts you can give yourself, to forgive. Forgive everybody." ~ Maya Angelou
There is an air of closure that has been filling my heart over the last several weeks. It embraces me with a fear I have not felt before. I wanted […]
“What is your grief?” she asked. “Life.” I answered. “How can that be?” she asked. “How can it not be?” I countered. “By removing lust.” she replied. “What does that […]
In another’s square peg moment I am fulfilled being a circle of love, to prove that all need not fit perfectly for peace to exist. I have tasted so many […]
Put down the bottle; graze on yeast: Still addicted Put down the needle; pop in a pill: Still dependent Put down the pipe; put on a patch: Still suffocating Addiction […]
[Trigger Warning: Sexual Abuse]
A few weeks ago I weighed 0.0 lbs and felt the universe was talking to me, letting me know I am nothing and everything. The next week I checked my […]
Lips touch through dim drapes Closing carefully crafted acceptance Speech of apparitional souls dancing Flames destined to spread Forever fated lovers Meet once more at curtain call Home is forever […]
No separation between dark and light Worms in the dirt, Jack on her skin Smoke in the air tasting the black sun Once again she moves before mud settles Dressed […]
The Mayo Clinic has a quick list of the risk factors for postpartum depression. I didn’t know that’s the freeway I was headed down after I had my daughter, but, […]
Meth Heroin Tobacco Marijuana Alcohol Fat, skinny. Fat, skinny. Fat. Homeless, Poor, Homeless, Poor. Fall, Crawl, Fall, Crawl. I’ve witnessed the progression, learning to numb to its effects, to her, […]
Judged by what he receives Less on what he gives Judged by what has fallen Less on what he builds Judged by ability to stretch Less on ability to swim […]
Furious Thoughts: Why did you choose this path? How can you trust your choices? Self-Talk: Think with your heart. Love with your mind. Forgive. Sad Thoughts: Tired of crying. Tired […]
After work she stopped by the Gas Lighting Grill to have dinner in the Isolation Room where she ultimately found herself Depressed. In tears she asked the waiter for some […]
I hadn’t been to my old gym in a while so as I headed over to one of the machines to warm up my old trainer walked away from his […]
“Don’t let the mind set the stage for your life because it will always be a limitation” ~ Mooji I’m intensely private, I think? Today’s confession: My ex stalked me […]
“Love is worth so much more than money. There are so many people who are filthy rich, but have nobody to genuinely love them. Unconditional love is priceless. If you have someone who really loves you for your heart, without any conditions, then you are truly one of the wealthiest people in the world.” ― Suzy Kassem
"If we remembered everyday that we could lose someone at any moment, we would love them more fiercely and freely, and without fear." ~ Unknown
The Gokai (5 Reiki principles)
“…if you don’t contradict yourself on a regular basis, then you’re not thinking.” ~ Malcom Gladwell It’s a fact I’m always self-reflecting. It’s almost always healing for me in some […]
I witnessed her cry only once as an adult. My grandmother. Her daughter, my aunt and her only caregiver died. There were so many people at her funeral that after […]
As soon as she and her husband walked through the door (technically my step-father but if I ever refer to him as dad it is only in jest) I felt […]
“Muddy water is best cleared by leaving it alone.” ― Alan W. Watts
Don’t let anyone open an umbrella in your heart attempting to shield the world from your brightness. I’m attracted to pain and pain is attracted to me. It has always […]
The point of a maze is to find its center. The point of a labyrinth is to find your center. ~ Unknown
“Let's tell the truth to people. When people ask, 'How are you?' have the nerve sometimes to answer truthfully. You must know, however, that people will start avaoiding you because, they, too, have knees that pain them and heads that hurt and they don't want to know about yours. But think of it this way: If people avoid you, you will have more time to meditate and do fine research on a cure for whatever truly afflicts you.” ― Maya Angelou
"Cyclops, you ask my honorable name. Remember the gift you promised me, and I shall tell you. my name is Nohbdy: mother father and friends, everyone calls me Nohbdy."
Parasites are not only incredibly diverse; they are also incredibly successful. There are parasitic stretches of DNA in your own genes, some of which are called retrotransposons. Many of the parasitic stretches were originally viruses that entered our DNA. Most of them don't do us any harm. They just copy and insert themselves in other parts of our DNA, basically replicating themselves. Sometimes they hop into other species and replicate themselves in a new host. According to one estimate, roughly one-third to one-half of all human DNA is basically parasitic. ~ Carl Zimmer
“Don't you find it odd," she continued, "that when you're a kid, everyone, all the world, encourages you to follow your dreams. But when you're older, somehow they act offended if you even try.” ― Ethan Hawke
“The loneliest moment in someone’s life is when they are watching their whole world fall apart, and all they can do is stare blankly.” ― F. Scott Fitzgerald
No bars can ever imprison your heart.
I never understood the cruelty.
Frantic beings we do become without them.
...my tears wish to fall into the calling of the bottle.
Over time my anger transmuted to shame.
...marriage and divorce are both beginnings and endings...
There are no solitary drops of rain.
...my powerlessness was erased by the control of intake...
My purpose and passion have changed.
You are the quintessence of beauty.
From as far back as I can remember, she hated me.
I asked for help to find a specific color of muteness.
I miss the lightness of my hands and heart.
Love ~ Peace ~ Freedom
Find your weeds.
...a silent impromptu cadenza with no audience.
"Never underestimate the ruthlessness of the ego to keep you in a state of suffering in which you voluntarily participate." Iyanla Vanzant
Each step numbered.
Do not thin yourself...
...don't give up.
...the right door was opened for you.
My mind is cocked and loaded.
Let your light shine.
...spiritual illiteracy sometimes takes a hold of all of us and requires that we perform a makeover within or suffer forever without.
Bullies truly are afraid deep down inside.
I'm not an MD but sometimes doctor mom can diagnose in a way no MD can.
Please don' sell me Massa!
I've got a checkmate mentality with a stalemate reality.
... they did not prepare me for what I would see.
...he would sometimes hold the muzzle of a shotgun to her head and threaten to pull the trigger.
“For whatever we lose (like a you or a me), It's always our self we find in the sea.” ― E.E. Cummings
... it was too late, a backdraft was in progress.
...extremities last receiving flow - holding hands watch you go...
… there is no need to keep the gold in the furnace once all of the dross has fallen away.
comforted. loved. in absence of wanting.
I watched him punch, kick and spit on you.