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Category: Musings

Dénouement

The Mine too deep Overburden too great Becoming a Tunnel A Source of Milk A Pleader of Love Feeding Conclusions Sans Dictum

Mummified

Heated agony Dehydrated pain Embalming curse Broken In the Afterlife

Geostationary

Bodies stand before her as she stares To notice her gouging heart, rare She will not to participate In this guise, this life, this fate No longer does she want […]

Structure

She struggles In the middle road Her heart on both The right and The left In the middle she Holds out her hands To catch The baby from the left […]

Transformational T-Day

Learning the heart and unlearning the mind Unlearning the gifts appearing too kind Admiring the sun and walking in thanks Accepting the falseness of smiling ranks As bodies feed on […]

All in, all the time

My two oldest sons get upset that I work so much. They tell me I need to get a job that pays more so I don’t need to work as […]

The Old Lady and MJ

My neighbor is a drinker. I suspect I knew it when first I met and hugged her. Days of alcohol perfumed her skin, having reached limits it could not otherwise […]

Vanishing

"The essence of your mind is intrinsically pure." ~ Alan Watts

Diegesis: Plot Zero

She counted fingers, counted toes What a love, what a state Wearing faces for the shows What a life, what a fate All that glitters Shakespearean   Shines gold filled […]

Displaced Energy

The dead are not dead when their energy remains in you after their body has transitioned The living are not living when their energy remains in you after their heart […]

Drinking Sodium HYPOChloRITE

We hadn’t talked in weeks and she sent me a nasty text, telling me I was horrible and abusive, for choosing to leave him to ‘fend for himself’. How dare […]

Heart IN Tuition

1994 Palm Reading Went to the fair Waving empty hand Spotted golden hair Offset with perfect tan Approached smoky tent Sat smiling in his chair Gave five hundred cents To […]

Aurum

  Props are not required to showcase the gemstones in your heart Allow none to take account of your inventory and tell you its value Know your worth and reject […]

Verbose Gleukos

Sometimes I regress to stuttering with people I feel most comfortable with. A long-time client called and I started ta-ta-talk-talking He said, “Are you stuttering?” I stopped, apologized, started over, […]

Ejected

If dating had the same penalties as football, some would never make it down the aisle that would eventually lead them to divorce court. At the very least, dating would […]

Stirred Not Shaken

Frank would be in his sixties today. I don’t usually think about him but this morning he came to mind and I couldn’t release him, so decided to journal in […]

Assets = Liabilities

Some are penned in the ledger While others are erased Some come for pleasure Others stay for taste Some support you at zero Others come only at ten Some come […]

Scrabble Points: 20

EJACULATION Bride Bridegroom Boyfriend Girlfriend Lover None does own the body None does own the mind None does own the breath Who are you releasing yourself from? Who are you […]

Loves Nemesis

She pulled the priest aside and asked him to talk with her in the confessional before the ceremony, two hours away.  It was raining, all of her planning had fallen […]

Resin Casting

She opens a gate, things flood in and she promptly needs to close it. They always say yes to a proposed ideal. Politics 101. No one cares about MK Moderate. […]

YouTube Funeral

[Trigger Warning: References to Death, PTSD (Sexual Abuse), Drugs & Alcohol]

Action > Words

She begs for help with surrendered submission His answer equal to the conceding petition She stands head bowed knowing there’s nothing to see The beggar continues to give three hundred […]

My Name is Love and I’m a Writer?

That was a short time off, yes?  Manifesting is working much faster than expected and I’m back cause I discovered something. I was at a networking lunch sulking at my […]

Wait-Less

I lost 60 pounds in twenty-four hours. Logic was temporarily suspended as I stared at the scale and smiled. It should have reflected the unsettling weight gain I was ready […]

La maison de Gerry

S’il vous plaît entrer et repos Fermez vos yeux Faites taire votre voix Cachez vos votes Nous vous servirons bientôt Salue Miss Mandering Ouvrez votre bouche Goûtez les balles Le […]

Untangled and Weeping

It was a morning like all others, until I watched the bucks, transfixed At how something so beautiful and free in nature Could became stuck by the obscurity of man […]

John’s Eyes

Build. Build. Build. No Investment, No Return. A wise John arrives at three minutes, fifty seconds. I press pause. Imagining the love that must have been invested in his heart for […]

Missing Primary

  dying to color with deserted wax inside blemished boxes infused with shades of red hiding amidst a spectrum of orange

Chord Progression

the arduous corridor melts my disapproving feet beneath the space forcing my energy announcing my arrival imploring my skin hairs on my arm raise intuition holds my hand grabs and […]

Rub-A-Dub-Dub

  mail has finally landed eyes fix on falling feathers bringing to mind poetry, ink doorbell rings, flowers arrive reminders to water plants bringing to mind parched souls her parched […]

Solving Limits of Relativity

Resolve uncertainty residing at the base of Quantum Theory Wheel me into the wards of unreason for Genetic Therapies Woo me with your artificial intelligence and Nanotechnologies Strip me naked, […]

Rescued After The Jump

It was nighttime and the moon outlined the swells of the ocean hundreds of feet below. As I looked down from the bridge I slid across to the passenger side […]

Resurrection Subscription Cancelled

“Cancel my subscription to the Resurrection, Send my credentials to the House of Detention…   Before I sink into the big sleep, I want to hear… I want to hear.. […]

The Lions Majestic Impotent Muzzle

COLLEGE was a cherry picking tree merry-go-ground and the only degree with my name on it would read, “B.A. in B.S. Randomness”, with honors. I dropped out, dropped in, dropped […]

It’s Too Late When We Die

"If we remembered everyday that we could lose someone at any moment, we would love them more fiercely and freely, and without fear." ~ Unknown

Lo-debar Tuition

"Silent thunder will too be silenced and the sun will speak." ~ Love Alchemy

Dark Thoughts

She closes her eyes and thoughts meld themselves together, gray melted candle wax forming lines and shapes on blank linen pages. She hears wind begging entry through the boarded windows […]

The Roar of A High Degree Dive

Soft on the ears His timber of lies Hiding savory fears Finding salty eyes Lips in surrender Caresses her breast Tongue softly tender Slides along chest Soft on the ears […]

My Friendless Friend

Thoughts are intermittently forming as pictures of animals and words are disappearing, the hallucinations increasing with sleep deprivation.  I sometimes turn to my ASMR Dream Team when nothing else works. […]

ax² + bx + c = woman²

put up your dukes is the face she wears along with pink and purple curly hair she dons a leather holster under her bra wears hats with feathers and answers […]

Buried Music

I am amazed at the number of old people I have been privileged to sit with who have kept their story and dreams hidden, only revealing them on their death […]

The Normalcy of Medicine

He drives in a trance through thirty minutes of traffic two ways each day to sit behind a desk for ten hours.  He’s taken this route for five years and […]

Love Notes

Always I’ve physically written down a thing I perceive to be positive or enlightening. Paper pads, journals, sticky notes, receipts, anything.  I don’t have the notes organized. They can be […]

Being Poor

Over the last year I’ve gotten rid of a lot of material things so as a family we are as spartan as we have ever been.  It has brought me […]

Moment of Darkness

I felt an insistence to take big action. Abnormally big action. So I did. Then I immediately felt a familiar anxiety. A part of myself that recognized I wanted to […]

Fields of Gold

When is the unveiling, the announcement? I don’t know. I walk seemingly unbridled, unafraid. I don’t see anything but in anticipation feel everything. How do I explain that it will […]

on being stretched

“Time is the substance I am made of. Time is a river which sweeps me along, but I am the river; it is a tiger which destroys me, but I am the tiger; it is a fire which consumes me, but I am the fire... ~ Jorge Luis Borges

on the butcher

“The creatures outside looked from pig to man, and from man to pig, and from pig to man again; but already it was impossible to say which was which.” ― George Orwell

on the season of darkness

“It was the best of times, it was the worst of times, it was the age of wisdom, it was the age of foolishness, it was the epoch of belief, it was the epoch of incredulity, it was the season of light, it was the season of darkness, it was the spring of hope, it was the winter of despair.” ― Charles Dickens

on drowning in the bottle

“Drinking is an emotional thing. It joggles you out of the standardism of everyday life, out of everything being the same. It yanks you out of your body and your mind and throws you against the wall. I have the feeling that drinking is a form of suicide where you're allowed to return to life and begin all over the next day. It's like killing yourself, and then you're reborn. I guess I've lived about ten or fifteen thousand lives now.” ― Charles Bukowski

on endurance

“She was a genius of sadness, immersing herself in it, separating its numerous strands, appreciating its subtle nuances. She was a prism through which sadness could be divided into its infinite spectrum.” ― Jonathan Safran Foer

on the psychic

“In every crowd are certain persons who seem just like the rest, yet they bear amazing messages.” ― Antoine de Saint-Exupéry

on murder

Kill one man, and you are a murderer. Kill millions of men, and you are a conqueror. Kill them all, and you are a god. ~ Jean Rostand

on purposelessness

A whole army, though they can neither write nor read, are not afraid of a platform, which they know is but earth or stone; nor of a cannon, which, without a hand to give fire to it, is but cold iron; therefore a whole army is afraid of one man. ~ J. Harrington

on the feels

“Sometimes, reaching out and taking someone's hand is the beginning of a journey. At other times, it is allowing another to take yours.” ― Vera Nazarian

on subterfuge

Alchemy is the art of manipulating life, and consciousness in matter, to help it evolve, or to solve problems of inner disharmonies. - Jean Dubuis

on two ills to de

“Dream delivers us to dream, and there is no end to illusion. Life is like a train of moods like a string of beads, and, as we pass through them, they prove to be many-colored lenses which paint the world their own hue. . . . ” ― Ralph Waldo Emerson

on junk removal

"When our individual life force enters our fetal body, the moment in which we become truly human, it passes through the pineal and triggers the first primordial flood of DMT. Later, at birth, the pineal releases more DMT. As we die, the life-force leaves the body through the pineal gland, releasing another flood of this psychedelic spirit molecule." ~ Rick Strassman

on anger

...angry at the asphyxiation suffered at silence while trying to breath in affection.

on hypervigilance

...would sit under her living room table for hours at a time, feeling out of sorts but hidden and safe.